Ok, So I’ve been putting this off for while never blogged before & don’t really know where to start.
So I guess I better just start from the beginning, well not completely from the beginning just the end of 2010.
I try not to go on too long though.
Some people may be wondering “what is this mixed emotions music project?” the people that follow me on facebook any way might be? the guys on soundcloud probably know & my friends & family closest to me might know also.
To put it plainly simply its a music experiment that I’ve been working on for a couple years which has it’s own tales of ups & downs which I’ll try to briefly explain.
The idea came to me about this time 2 years ago, I had wanted for many years to be involved in a band & creating music has always been a first love of mine ever since I was 16, but I gave up when I was about 21 & wanted be more involved in the cinema projection industry.
Fast forward 10 years & the arrival of digital cinema projection & hearing many of the people I looked up to & grown respect for were being made redundant as the role of the projectionist was no longer needed or wanted (I am one of the very few people who is still lucky enough to have this role for now anyway) I got a little low & became increasingly negative about my life & work (for those who know me know I’m not usually like that) but one of these days I picked up my electric guitar of 15+ years & started to play & through that gave me an escapism & helped me through what I consider to be a difficult & hard time for me as the pressure increased on me to be more involved in the side of the cinema industry I had no interest in.
So 2011 saw the start of my first involvement of the mixed emotions project (or alternatively known as Mixed Emotions).
As I said it started out with just helping me but also it began to help a friend of mine who was going through a very hard time (& much harder it got for him in the future as this tale goes on) I will leave his name & problems anonymous as I feel that would be unfair of me to talk about him without his permission.
I asked him if he he would be interested in being involved with my project to which I was pleasantly surprised to find he wanted to be involved
And each month we would get together & have a jam & discuss this project which I had invited him in too, I hope this helped him as much as it was helping me at the end of each jam we would have some pretty decent material I would begin to make plans on which songs to start practise on ready for our next jam with the plan to have a completed song finished ready to upload & present to the World Wide Web.
Unfortunately as 2012 came about it started out very positive but became very negative by the summer 2012, First thing to happen was my friend’s problems came too much for him & seemed to lose interest in the project, So I decided to continue without him with the door still left wide open for him whenever he felt he was ready to return.
The second unfortunate thing to happen was as things were beginning to to look up, me & my girlfriend would go away for the weekend for my birthday but on our return home to our flat that we were living in at the time only to find we had been robbed, & of all things to have been taken were 2 computers, the one that me & my girlfriend used at home which had pictures of us from the very first time we met & the computer that I used for my music. All recordings that me & my friend had done were kept on the personal HDD which was also stolen resulting in months of hard work had all gone but luckily MOST the material me & my friend done was kept on his personal computer but all the material I had worked on by myself was lost for good.
This resulted in me losing interest in my music again for 6 months but after me & my girlfriend moved out of our dingy little flat to our first house to which my girlfriend kindly suggested I use the small box room as a music room (which became my studio) & so I decided try again with the mixed emotions music project.
2013 is for me the start of something positive for not just my music but the people I care about whether that be my beautiful girlfriend, my friends I’ve known 20 plus years & a little bit less or my family who have all always been there for whenever I’ve needed them through my hardest times.
With this new positive feeling has made feel like starting again & going back to that once optimistic & positive person I once was & with the mixed emotions music project which involves music, social networking & hopefully a charity to help others when they are going through a hard time & feeling bad about themselves I hope I can bring this project to them.
So wish me luck on this adventure & I hope you get some satisfaction from the music that either myself or anyone else involved with this project will have on you.
Here’s to a happy & positive new year throughout 2013.